Sunday, October 21, 2012

Charlotte



I thought I had all my childhood memories tucked away,
somewhere safe in the back of my mind,
compartmentalized.
Shoved in a box, taped shut, stuck on a shelf and
forgotten about.
In fact, they were forgotten so well that I actually
couldn’t recall them when I wanted to.
Now that they’re unwanted guests,
they’ve come bursting through the
doors, tumbling off the shelves.
The tape is worn and tearing.
The box is opening and spewing them
all over my psyche.
They are ruining everything.
For the first time in my life,
and hopefully the only time,
I’m       having             a          complete        mental                        b
                                                                                                 R
                                                                                                   E
                                                                                                     A
                                                                                                       K
                                                                                                         D
                                                                                                            O
                                                                                                                        W
                                                                                                                                    n.
Feels like I’m falling deeper and deeper
into a sea of memories that are waiting
with wide open mouths, monstrous jaws.
Their hands are open and held together;
They’re collecting now.
            Collecting on my soul,
                        Feeding on my fears.
I thought I’d
dealt with these
demons a long
time ago. Turns
out all I did was
delay their feast.
Now it’s time to fight.
There’s no way I can
            let them defeat me.
                        But reliving them is such
                                    a terrifying experience.
Quick, sneak them in.                                                                    Let's play dirty.

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